Dark days - Aria MacDonald

Dark days

The words of this post have changed so many times in my head.

Yesterday was a dreadful day.  Aria had yet another episode.  These episodes are scary and we know that they can mark the beginning of the end.  Once we stop being able to maintain her blood pressure and keep oxygen in her lungs and her little heart beating then the outcome of that is obvious.

You need to know we are struggling with this blog currently.  These are dark days.  Our previous dark days, when her first transplant failed and we waited for another round of funding, were not written about on this blog.  There was a sense of relief in that.  Honestly I don’t know what to say or how to say it.  I don’t want to be negative but I don’t want to give the impression that these are rosey times because misunderstanding hurts.

What happened yesterday is really horrible and I can’t bring myself to give details.  But I wish I could  because by understanding details you will know Aria is a fighter and a miracle occurred and the team is relieved.  But you will just have to take my word for it.

Aria can’t seem to get over the hump.  Like a speed bump she gets to the top and just can’t seem to make it over.  Her vent settings are really high (which before Tuesday were pretty low) and perhaps she is heading backwards.

Please keep praying for her, of course I know you will, thank you.  She needs to beat this infection.  Her bone marrow needs to recover.  We need to stop feeling like we are losing her, it is crushing, I don’t know how much more I can take.  God knows and is ministering to our souls.  He is not ready to take her, not today, we are pleading He doesn’t, not yet, not this way.

70 Responses to “Dark days”

  1. jeannie overall says:

    may our mighty Lord continue to give you His blessed assurance-may it help a wee bit to know that there are so many brothers and sisters holding you all up before His throne-love, Jeannie

  2. Mirren says:

    We are praying for you all, God knows your hearts and He cares.

  3. Samantha Seccombe says:

    We are praying for you all.
    Praying that you would know God himself walking with you in your dark days. Ps 23 v4, Ps 139 v 11 and that you would know his comfort. With our love Sam and Martin.

  4. H Wilkie says:

    Aria you are such a fighter, and so is your family. May you find the peace of God McDonald Whanau in these dark times may he embrace you and carry you. Love you Aria.

  5. Emma & Gremlins says:

    I don’t know what to say, we are all praying hard as always for Aria, and for you, Hamish and Asher xx

  6. Jo says:

    I feel like your little girl is climbing Mt Everest. Kiwis do that you know! Tackle the unimaginable and succeed. Aria has been in this place before and made it to the summit.

    You guys may be on the other side of the world, but you are VERY close to our hearts. We are praying for you, and feeling with you the desire that the Lord do the impossible and turn things around for Aria. I pray for your energy levels too.

    This is the hardest battle I have ever heard a loving Mum, Dad and brother go through. What a really tough time for you guys.

    Biggest hug guys

  7. Brian and Sandra says:

    We are with you in spirit xoxo

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  9. Linda Crosbie says:

    Oh please let all the prayers take Aria over that summit to better health and full recovery. Heart goes out to you all. Kia kaha. Xxxx

  10. Josie says:

    In Jesus name we pray health, peace and comfort…our thoughts and prayers are with you all xxx

  11. Julie Cooper says:

    Praying for you all in these dark days. Our sermon this morning was the passage where Jesus told the woman “Don’t cry”. I couldn’t stop thinking of you. He does love and care for you in these dark days xx

  12. Priscilla says:

    Praying hard for Aria and you all xxx

  13. Samantha Sutherland says:

    My heart is so heavy for you all. As desperate as we all are to hear from you, if you need to take a break from this blog then you need to do so, you are more important than all of us and we understand.

    Sending all my love and prayers to you and especially precious girl xxx

  14. Michelle Lemon says:

    Dear Lord,
    I pray that you will hold Aria, Anita, Hamish and Asher close, that you guide and direct the doctors and nurses! That they will all feel the love and prayers that are being poured out on their behalf! May your peace surround them and give them strength. I pray that everyone reading this blog will have the understanding that is meant by it’s words and in turn will be there to support Aria and her family as they need. In Jesus name I pray! Amen!

  15. Jayce says:

    Always thinking of you, Aria.

  16. Jane says:

    I pray that the Peace of God which passes all understanding shall keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Phill 4 v 7 Please dear ones dont stress about the …we dont have any expectations of you 🙂 We continue to uphold you before the Father. He is Ever Present in your time of despair.

  17. Jane says:

    I missed the word blog out sorry.

  18. Nigel Burrell says:

    Praying hard for precious Aria and you all from the U.K. – stay strong. Healing wishes and virtual hugs sent to your special little girl.

    love, Nigel XXX

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