Moving On
It seems like everything we have done since Aria died is somewhat of a mission. Every new thing we take on, each step we take back towards ‘normality’ seems like a step further away from the life we had with Aria.
Moving into a permanent house = hard.
Starting back at work = hard.
Getting going on resuming my studies = hard.
The latest challenge, going back to preaching = hard.
While I am really looking forward to preaching again after a couple of years of not being able to, it is another step towards our new life.
I know that God has this life prepared for us, and that all we have been through with Aria is now part of us and will be used by God, but it is hard not to have Aria with us anymore. We want to honour her memory and cherish the part she has in our lives but it is hard to find the best way to do that and to carry her with us in a positive way.
Until such time as we find that way, we will keep on moving on the best we can, trusting God to make the path forward clear.